03: ABC Day Tres

Results of the day:
B: Multivitamin
L: Pretzels (110)
D: 1 sour stick (16), apple (80), tea, soup (60)
T: 266

I hear tomorrow is supposed to be the hardest, but usually the third day of restricting is the worst for me. But I faked eating the dinner my step mom made, had my soup, and I'm pretty content. I just have to ask for more soup. I'm not sure if I'm going to work out tonight or not. I'm pretty exhausted for some reason. Well... not really. Not as bad as I would expect; I think it's from the multivitamins keeping me well. As of 6:30 PM I weigh 68.5 kilos! Hopefully in the morning it goes down even more that would be spectacular! I've done the majority of my homework and what's left, I don't mind doing. I'm getting really into this book. And if I ever feel like binging, I've came up with the idea that I can summarize what i've read so far and what my emotions are on it. That's how you know you're a geek; when you actually want to analyse stuff like you do in AP English. But really, restricting does me a lot of good; I got back into reading, and am already on page 172. It's a really good story, I love books with a lot of description and backstory. For a while, at the hospital, I lost where I was. And it was like I wasn't even consiously reading the story but like it was being read to me. Is that weird? And I've just thought of how the girl in the story is pictured in my mind and I feel like a lot of people picture her differently. I don't know. I'm more insightful when I'm not busy shoving food down my throat. I still have no desire to talk to boys or anything. Maybe it's because when I'm bored I feel the need to talk to them; but I'm not bored because restricting gives me something to focus on. And I have PT, and books, and blogging. So really, I'm content with just myself. And I think that's a good way to be. Sometimes when I get really into a book, I sort of morph into their personality. Especially if they talk in the first person. I begin thinking that their world is mine, and that I should do as they would. That always affects me badly with ED books and such. Makes this all worse. So far, I've lost 3.08 pounds (started at 69.9) and it's just now the end of day three. I'm hoping that I will be able to lose ten pounds in the week. It depends on how much I weigh when I wake up, and its generally less than when i go to sleep. So we'll see.